a post? in the middle of UAN?(almost the end, actually)

hey hey it's been a while:)
well i'm too darn lazy but let's get down to the topic

hmm suggestions?
nothing comes in mind, really.
i've been bored (despite all the facts pointing that i must study for UAN, which makes me even more hopeless in searching of something to do)..
I'VE BEEN REALLY BORED I MIGHT DIE

yeah.so.forget about the dying part.
ok so i came up with...
UAN?no. too damn boring
so
how bout SHOWS and PERFORMANCES?

truth be told, i've been itching to one myself, intentionally of course.
since all this time (recently, i mean), i was called for shows but unintentionally and unprepared thus, well, i ended up just fine though.still in one piece.

talk about shows, i do have an opportunity.i didn't have any means to shine or whatsoever people like to call, being famous?nah, that ruins my image.
so i want to perform because, i want to!
i like to entertain others, in a good way (Y)
especially music! and jokes.. hehe
well, unintentional jokes are far better than my intended jokes.dunno why.
instinct?maybe

so..i've been thinking about the performances ever since.
it may seem ridiculous but, i want to uphold shows and performances more than anything (like school works. realtionship still number one though(Y)).
even since we're preparing for UAN and UAS, my mind reeled up with ideas for shows.
'how to do this, that, prepare stuffs etc etc.'
i've practiced a few pieces too and i really really want to go on a show.
but what i lack is confidence==a...so much for the efforts.
i'm thinking not to waste it n going to work extra harder! YEAH!
what's the pieces you say?hahaha it's a secret:)

but before i keep babbling about this, i REALLY need to focus on my final UAN because there's someone i want to beat!i'm not gonna quit.
actually i'm quit upset there wasn't a bet about beating this guy but, my reputation on the line so i guess i can think of it as the bet hahhaa.
of course, we should remember what Mr. Adidas says, 'Impossible is nothing!'
YEAH!!!!
i can do this like all of you can rite?what to worry about hahaha
so okay done with this there's something i want to ask:

1. is there something that you really want to do after this damn UAN or basically a work?
2. do you feel like i do to?getting all fired up like that i mean
3. confidence!u got that or what?
4. mind telling me how to be confident in oneself?:)

thanks i look forward to the replies (if i have some)
gao gao