10.31.2011

i don't want you to see i just wanna write something

like what's written above, i don't want you to see..
i'm just desperately wanna write it out..
i hate the feeling inside me that swells when i see you
i hate the tears inside me that swells when you're with her:(
i have no idea what to do and i hate it.
i hate it the way i don't know anything
like i've lost it all
like i need to turn around and start all over
BUT I WON'T START OVER!
there's no point in starting over when there's no you..
the only one who makes up my space..
i remember the day you said to me
'i could not imagine a world without you'
was it for real? or just another lie?
are there hopes? or just a broken string?
i really need a miracle but sometimes i felt like you're testing me..
why?