Dead end.. Oh WTF, another one?!?!

Ahh.. Finally I'm back.. Merry Christmas everyone.. and a Happy New Year
(that doesn't include me,though)

Aww man, all this stuffs really drive me crazy and making me a fool (again) and worst, it happen to be the day before the New Year!!

Seriously, why can't I just have a peaceful life?!?!

Talking shit man, I'm useless.. I must be condemned for my whole life.. A monster.. Yeah.. Maybe..

I keep telling to myself to never have regrets and to live your life to the fullest, but it seems that, I am meant to live with this regrets.. No matter how, no matter what are the reasons.. With this regrets I proceed my life.. I tried to throw and forget all of them but it seems it's too heavy I got carried too and fall behind.. I'm falling back to my past..

The terrible past.. My regrets.. They're surrounding me.. I can't hold it.. My fearness took control of my whole body and everything turns... dark ....

I can't see it again.. Damn, fearness.. Can't fight them.. I can't attack my own self..

"You coward.. How can you let it get away??" the voice beyond the darkness speak to me.. It was "D"

"You know you want to get away from your regrets and burdens.. Everything that ruined your life.."- It hissed, full of anger - "WHY DID YOU RUN AWAY?!?" The creeping shadows emerges and surrounded the cloacked D The shadows protected D

"Run away will means nothing in your life.. You'll turn around against your loves one and never return again.. It's meaningless.." D said the last words with sadness..

I tried to think about it but I've found nothing.. The puzzles are almost clear.. The way to put it back to one piece will make it the first hardest after finding all of the puzzles..

I think I need some lessons from D.. D knows everything.. I wish D has its real body so I can talk and ask for advice any time..

"Wish it to turn around, and it shall be granted.. For a price.." D said it, eagerly and a little bit hesitating..

And I said, "Give it a chance.. What's the price??"

"Turn around and face your past.. Break through and survive.."