projek...mw ap coba?!makan tai masa cuma bwt majalah aj biaya bs ampe sejuta! FUCK THIS! GW G SLH NULIS JUDUL! MATI GILA TU ORG NYURU BWT MAJALAH D VERNIS LAH PAKE ART PAPER LAH KASI SEKOLAH LAH!! MAKAN NI KAME KAME HA!!!
(pemikiran orang stres)
11.28.2010
11.19.2010
i hope you guys read this
well just so you know, i've been lately a little bit on my boring state so yeah, i might want to ask (and now currently asking) you guys to actually give me questions so i could overcome my boredom and everything in between..yeah.this all projects are giving me headache recently and i have no time to lay low..
and perhaps i need feedbacks too:)
well thanks to those who always visiting my blog.i hope you're not virus:D
again thanks so much!
and perhaps i need feedbacks too:)
well thanks to those who always visiting my blog.i hope you're not virus:D
again thanks so much!
video editing
well another school project and guess what?
it's so damn annoying!!!
argh there're about 5 or more and are not done now this?!
seriously, what is school thinking?
so the thing that I've been doing is this video editing.we have to make a music video from the song 'old tige' (whatever that is, i don't recommend it) by Jim Reeves.
seriously, i'll give you the lyric and yet, it was beyond my expectation..worst.
(Tige you were faithful faithful to the end
Tige how I miss you you were my best friend)
Three years of Army Service done and I was headin' home at last.
I got to thinking bout my dog and things long gone and past.
How old Tige pulled me from the creek when I had no pulse or breath,
and how he saved me from the chargin' bull that gored my Dad to death.
As a kid I'd dream of bears and tremble to my toes
Till old Tige come up to my bed and nudge me with his nose.
Then my fears would melt away and Tige would go lie down,
I'd drift on back to sleep without another sound.
The big bus stopped I got off - it was awful dark and thick with fog.
Then something gently nuzzled me and there stood Tige my dog.
I wondered if my faithful dog had met the bus each day
And all the dreary winter nights since I'd been away.
To have Tige meet me here like this, I was...I was really glad
'Cause I hadn't needed Tige so much since the day they'd buried Dad.
Two long miles still lay ahead, but what I didn't know
A giant Dam was being built where the old road used to go.
I thank the Lord for sending Tige and I followed where he led,
Knowing well without his help that I'd be good as dead.
Tige inched along this way and that, going rough and slow,
And I could hear the water lappin' at the ledges far below.
Then through the mist I saw a light and mother in her chair,
I reached down to pet old Tige but he wasn't there.
I'm thankful Mom you had old Tige these three lonely years
I owe my life to him tonight, I couldn't help my tears.
You say you wrote me bout the Dam, well, God was sure with us
I didn't get your letter, Mom, but old Tige met the bus.
I hate to tell you son, she said, but now you've got to know.
When you left it broke his heart...Tige died three years ago.
(You were my best friend)
-----------------------------------
WHAT KIND OF SONG?! n my teacher was saying that it was actually ballad..the hell?
i'm not really into this...
it's so damn annoying!!!
argh there're about 5 or more and are not done now this?!
seriously, what is school thinking?
so the thing that I've been doing is this video editing.we have to make a music video from the song 'old tige' (whatever that is, i don't recommend it) by Jim Reeves.
seriously, i'll give you the lyric and yet, it was beyond my expectation..worst.
(Tige you were faithful faithful to the end
Tige how I miss you you were my best friend)
Three years of Army Service done and I was headin' home at last.
I got to thinking bout my dog and things long gone and past.
How old Tige pulled me from the creek when I had no pulse or breath,
and how he saved me from the chargin' bull that gored my Dad to death.
As a kid I'd dream of bears and tremble to my toes
Till old Tige come up to my bed and nudge me with his nose.
Then my fears would melt away and Tige would go lie down,
I'd drift on back to sleep without another sound.
The big bus stopped I got off - it was awful dark and thick with fog.
Then something gently nuzzled me and there stood Tige my dog.
I wondered if my faithful dog had met the bus each day
And all the dreary winter nights since I'd been away.
To have Tige meet me here like this, I was...I was really glad
'Cause I hadn't needed Tige so much since the day they'd buried Dad.
Two long miles still lay ahead, but what I didn't know
A giant Dam was being built where the old road used to go.
I thank the Lord for sending Tige and I followed where he led,
Knowing well without his help that I'd be good as dead.
Tige inched along this way and that, going rough and slow,
And I could hear the water lappin' at the ledges far below.
Then through the mist I saw a light and mother in her chair,
I reached down to pet old Tige but he wasn't there.
I'm thankful Mom you had old Tige these three lonely years
I owe my life to him tonight, I couldn't help my tears.
You say you wrote me bout the Dam, well, God was sure with us
I didn't get your letter, Mom, but old Tige met the bus.
I hate to tell you son, she said, but now you've got to know.
When you left it broke his heart...Tige died three years ago.
(You were my best friend)
-----------------------------------
WHAT KIND OF SONG?! n my teacher was saying that it was actually ballad..the hell?
i'm not really into this...
11.18.2010
yes yes so many virus here
so let's see..i thought now my C-box was ran over by virus, seeing those comments everyday. well if you really read my post then tell me about it don't just say nice info or anything or i'll wipe you out already..
talk about sour grapes..
this is serious anyway, guys. those kind of virus are actually everywhere and on some points, they have ran over perhaps a certain system..then again, these viruses can actually be somewhat of use but you face your consequences then..but seriously, this is all annoying!!
so whoever makes this that makes my c-box useless, i'm gonna search you and rip you off! don't tell me it's impossible! it will be possible, i mind you..
so shut up already and go to hell if you keep doing this..what's life to you?get something, seriously..
talk about sour grapes..
this is serious anyway, guys. those kind of virus are actually everywhere and on some points, they have ran over perhaps a certain system..then again, these viruses can actually be somewhat of use but you face your consequences then..but seriously, this is all annoying!!
so whoever makes this that makes my c-box useless, i'm gonna search you and rip you off! don't tell me it's impossible! it will be possible, i mind you..
so shut up already and go to hell if you keep doing this..what's life to you?get something, seriously..
11.16.2010
dude i just saw this horoscope and it's damn accurate
freakinly scary! i don't believe it!
but damn it's accurate...
i'm a gemini so this is how it goes here on the daily overview:
Overview
You'd never complain about being too busy on any other day but today. For now, though, you'd just as soon go back to bed rather than face all those tasks, appointments and meetings. It's over soon.
You're witty, sharp and funny, and you learned a long time ago to listen to your gut. At the moment, that built-in radar is telling you that there's something coming up. The good news is that what's on the agenda isn't going to be at all unpleasant. You'll probably end up being quite delighted with the surprise the heavens have in store for you. In the meantime, grant an audience to someone who's asked to speak with you in private.
A rowdy outing or scrimmage will be exactly the thing you need today. Look out for you-know-who. A locked gaze filled with meaning won't happen if you're just talking, but play soccer and you never know what might happen.
Isn't it great being a Gemini? All that charm, that mental flexibility, that ability to see both sides of the issue ... you're the wonder of the zodiac. Take a bow. The problem with that is that both sides of the issue have been kind of a drag. Good news: that's all going to change in the next year!
Gemini is one of the few Sun signs that doesn't have an animal symbol, but this may be the year that all of that changes. In the past few years, with Pluto opposing your sign, you've been a little like a monkey, swinging from branch to branch trying desperately to keep one step ahead of the predators and keep yourself fed. With Pluto now moved on into Capricorn, a lot of the major partnership issues you've faced will be lightening up. You'll still retain the swing, but this year you're going to feel a lot more like a hummingbird: still mobile, still getting things done, but in a much more elegant manner.
Your renowned intellect has been strained the last couple of years, as it's been forced to find solutions to the many issues you've been dealt. In 2010, you'll finally be gaining some traction on your biggest challenges, and solutions will flow to you with ease.
----------------------------
end straight here.
so,some of them (the bold ones) which are accurate for all the reading..i don't believe horoscopes though but it fits somehow which is annoying.
1. yeah today i was complaining about this and that right before the school is over.damn right projects are flowing like freakin jackpot machine
2.well i guess myself though some of them seems fun i mean i had mostly came the problems with ease which makes me smiles a lot (don't mention score, it's the bad news)
3. well, locked gaze?not really my style, i'd rather sit back and watch.maybe things are going straight into plan then again, i need to 'play soccer'?the soccer part is kind of scary...relates somehow
4. the little monkey is actually the character of Final Fantasy IX which has a tail like a monkey and he's so kawaii! (cute) especially in Dissidia. yeah, unintentionally i've been watching some scenes of final fantasy ix which includes him as the main character (well yeah) and i've been replaying the song melodies of life in my play (piano)..go figure
5. the hummingbird part, which now i wore all the time. earring of hummingbirds given recently from my mother, and a ring of hummingbird; both for good fortune..now ain't that scary?
you see...i would repeat again that i don't believe in those horoscopes cos it's kind of crap and probably for me it's just for fun but after seeing these..it's gonna worth reading it but again, i'm not 100% sure. i mean there's no way i'll get a boyfriend in the 30th of November regardless of the effort i have done (none i guess) and it's not funny..
okay see you then:)
but damn it's accurate...
i'm a gemini so this is how it goes here on the daily overview:
Overview
You'd never complain about being too busy on any other day but today. For now, though, you'd just as soon go back to bed rather than face all those tasks, appointments and meetings. It's over soon.
You're witty, sharp and funny, and you learned a long time ago to listen to your gut. At the moment, that built-in radar is telling you that there's something coming up. The good news is that what's on the agenda isn't going to be at all unpleasant. You'll probably end up being quite delighted with the surprise the heavens have in store for you. In the meantime, grant an audience to someone who's asked to speak with you in private.
A rowdy outing or scrimmage will be exactly the thing you need today. Look out for you-know-who. A locked gaze filled with meaning won't happen if you're just talking, but play soccer and you never know what might happen.
Isn't it great being a Gemini? All that charm, that mental flexibility, that ability to see both sides of the issue ... you're the wonder of the zodiac. Take a bow. The problem with that is that both sides of the issue have been kind of a drag. Good news: that's all going to change in the next year!
Gemini is one of the few Sun signs that doesn't have an animal symbol, but this may be the year that all of that changes. In the past few years, with Pluto opposing your sign, you've been a little like a monkey, swinging from branch to branch trying desperately to keep one step ahead of the predators and keep yourself fed. With Pluto now moved on into Capricorn, a lot of the major partnership issues you've faced will be lightening up. You'll still retain the swing, but this year you're going to feel a lot more like a hummingbird: still mobile, still getting things done, but in a much more elegant manner.
Your renowned intellect has been strained the last couple of years, as it's been forced to find solutions to the many issues you've been dealt. In 2010, you'll finally be gaining some traction on your biggest challenges, and solutions will flow to you with ease.
----------------------------
end straight here.
so,some of them (the bold ones) which are accurate for all the reading..i don't believe horoscopes though but it fits somehow which is annoying.
1. yeah today i was complaining about this and that right before the school is over.damn right projects are flowing like freakin jackpot machine
2.well i guess myself though some of them seems fun i mean i had mostly came the problems with ease which makes me smiles a lot (don't mention score, it's the bad news)
3. well, locked gaze?not really my style, i'd rather sit back and watch.maybe things are going straight into plan then again, i need to 'play soccer'?the soccer part is kind of scary...relates somehow
4. the little monkey is actually the character of Final Fantasy IX which has a tail like a monkey and he's so kawaii! (cute) especially in Dissidia. yeah, unintentionally i've been watching some scenes of final fantasy ix which includes him as the main character (well yeah) and i've been replaying the song melodies of life in my play (piano)..go figure
5. the hummingbird part, which now i wore all the time. earring of hummingbirds given recently from my mother, and a ring of hummingbird; both for good fortune..now ain't that scary?
you see...i would repeat again that i don't believe in those horoscopes cos it's kind of crap and probably for me it's just for fun but after seeing these..it's gonna worth reading it but again, i'm not 100% sure. i mean there's no way i'll get a boyfriend in the 30th of November regardless of the effort i have done (none i guess) and it's not funny..
okay see you then:)
10.23.2010
yooo
yeah gw bru aj selese bwt tugas mat ama temen gw si shierly wkwkwkwk...ud g jls bwtny gw ampe pusing2 ndiri tpi amin lah..jadi hehehe
okok cm itu aj wkwkkwkkw tw ah mw nulis ap
byeeee
okok cm itu aj wkwkkwkkw tw ah mw nulis ap
byeeee
10.21.2010
i'm not that kind
yeah gmn y akhr2 ni gw suka rada bete tpi ttp gw pksa senyum..
k org yg lg gw dendem ksumet stngh idup aj gw snyumin, demi mnjaga nama baik tmn gw..
y gw tipe org setia mngkin tpi ada saatny gw meledak dan g ad yg bakal bs berentiin gw..jd gw hrp hal ini tdk trjadi
gw bingung aj lah tw dh mw ngapain pkokny post kli ni rada serius.no jokes guys.i know it's sad.i used to post lots of crappy jokes that would make your ass falls off anyway..
yeah see ya until i get better
k org yg lg gw dendem ksumet stngh idup aj gw snyumin, demi mnjaga nama baik tmn gw..
y gw tipe org setia mngkin tpi ada saatny gw meledak dan g ad yg bakal bs berentiin gw..jd gw hrp hal ini tdk trjadi
gw bingung aj lah tw dh mw ngapain pkokny post kli ni rada serius.no jokes guys.i know it's sad.i used to post lots of crappy jokes that would make your ass falls off anyway..
yeah see ya until i get better
10.07.2010
hey semuany saya kembali!
yap setelah libur panjang ngepost blog krn kelewat males dan topikny yg mw d bicarain kelewat seru, gw g nulis hahhha:)
abis mid nih..tai abis:0 tpi gpp lah i can do it! i know i can:)
trima kasih atas smua bantuan yg d berikan trtama rahmat dari Jesus yah! Thx Jesus:)
dan teman2 sepermainan, keluarga seperumahan, pembantu seperlantai-atas-bawahan dan BONI my lovely dog sepertuan-dan-anjingan.
kalimat d atas dapat membuat anda rusak jadi tidak perlu d baca berulang-ulang aplg mencari artiny d kamus besar bahasa indonesia.
nah
selama mid, inilah hasilny:
MIE- uooo g nyangka ad soal yg indah bgt:) trimakasi!
Mat- mati lah..g jg sih gw bs tpi g yakin. BAKAR YG BUAT SOAL!
PKN- makan tai....CEBURIN YG BUAT SOAL!
BI- NOOOOH BGT AP ITU SECRET OF MONACRE?!
FISIKA- okelah kalo begitu...KUBUR YANG BUAT SOAL!
BIOLOGY- hahaahha bisa lah! SEMBAH YG BUAT SOAL! (tpi krna itu guru yg ngaco, coret sembahny)
IPS- AMIN! PUJI TUHAN YANG BUAT SOAL SOALNY DY BAEK !
yah trims semuany dah..g ush pnjg lebar lagi ..gw mls
hahahha
okay gw akn pny nama tetap untuk blog gw..gw harap ada poling nih hahaa
see ya
abis mid nih..tai abis:0 tpi gpp lah i can do it! i know i can:)
trima kasih atas smua bantuan yg d berikan trtama rahmat dari Jesus yah! Thx Jesus:)
dan teman2 sepermainan, keluarga seperumahan, pembantu seperlantai-atas-bawahan dan BONI my lovely dog sepertuan-dan-anjingan.
kalimat d atas dapat membuat anda rusak jadi tidak perlu d baca berulang-ulang aplg mencari artiny d kamus besar bahasa indonesia.
nah
selama mid, inilah hasilny:
MIE- uooo g nyangka ad soal yg indah bgt:) trimakasi!
Mat- mati lah..g jg sih gw bs tpi g yakin. BAKAR YG BUAT SOAL!
PKN- makan tai....CEBURIN YG BUAT SOAL!
BI- NOOOOH BGT AP ITU SECRET OF MONACRE?!
FISIKA- okelah kalo begitu...KUBUR YANG BUAT SOAL!
BIOLOGY- hahaahha bisa lah! SEMBAH YG BUAT SOAL! (tpi krna itu guru yg ngaco, coret sembahny)
IPS- AMIN! PUJI TUHAN YANG BUAT SOAL SOALNY DY BAEK !
yah trims semuany dah..g ush pnjg lebar lagi ..gw mls
hahahha
okay gw akn pny nama tetap untuk blog gw..gw harap ada poling nih hahaa
see ya
9.23.2010
halo semua:)
hei guys:)
ud lama gw g post blog hahaha sejak libur tuh jadi mls..tetep aj mls skrg
bahahaha..eniwei gw mw crita nih tpi y gmn y..rada mls
soalny tiap kli gw crita psti ad yg brubah2 gtu...g jls dh klo gw ngmng d sini so gw crita hal yang sewajar2ny aj ok?
ok d hahaha hari ni gitar gw 'TEAR' d rental oleh band the Fever (uoooo) tpi sayang, band Fever g jadi pentas T_T...too bad man.
padahal saya mw liat rio nnyi you'll be in my heart (NOH!)
yah...smg laen kli jadi..art performance gtu.trus jg smoga gw bs tmpil lagi januari pas pesta natal:) (amin)
hahahaha gw ud mw cba lagu2ny final fantasy gw mix jadi 1 biar keren jadi lguny nyambung2 gtu kn asik! hahahha tpi g tw jg sih ntar gw d protes pak lius lagi g blh lama2 T_T
nooooooh...pdhl gw pengen!
yea tpi klo gw blg g bnyk org jg peduli ama piano (kasian)...
sedih gila.parah bgt piano tuh bkin pegel ati bnyk org kykny..susah mnghibur dgn piano! masa msti jazz?! my ass..gw mls
hahahha maaf bkn brrti gw g suka jazz tpi maenny itu gila..g tw diri bgt
ud lah gw stres
bye
ud lama gw g post blog hahaha sejak libur tuh jadi mls..tetep aj mls skrg
bahahaha..eniwei gw mw crita nih tpi y gmn y..rada mls
soalny tiap kli gw crita psti ad yg brubah2 gtu...g jls dh klo gw ngmng d sini so gw crita hal yang sewajar2ny aj ok?
ok d hahaha hari ni gitar gw 'TEAR' d rental oleh band the Fever (uoooo) tpi sayang, band Fever g jadi pentas T_T...too bad man.
padahal saya mw liat rio nnyi you'll be in my heart (NOH!)
yah...smg laen kli jadi..art performance gtu.trus jg smoga gw bs tmpil lagi januari pas pesta natal:) (amin)
hahahaha gw ud mw cba lagu2ny final fantasy gw mix jadi 1 biar keren jadi lguny nyambung2 gtu kn asik! hahahha tpi g tw jg sih ntar gw d protes pak lius lagi g blh lama2 T_T
nooooooh...pdhl gw pengen!
yea tpi klo gw blg g bnyk org jg peduli ama piano (kasian)...
sedih gila.parah bgt piano tuh bkin pegel ati bnyk org kykny..susah mnghibur dgn piano! masa msti jazz?! my ass..gw mls
hahahha maaf bkn brrti gw g suka jazz tpi maenny itu gila..g tw diri bgt
ud lah gw stres
bye
9.14.2010
i am evil ?
saya kira bgtu...mngp? yah krn gw itu jahat...why why?
yah pkokny gw itu jahat!
ad sisi gw baek tpi gw brasa jauh lbh jahat drpd baek!!!
gw kdg brhrp org yg gw g suka ato bahkan gw bnci mnding mati, g us blik k dunia ini lagi. gw kdg brhrp seandainy gw bs mmbunuh ssorang yg bnr2 gw sebel, g pduli syp pun itu.gw brhrp gw bs ngncurin stu tmpt yg gw bnci, brhrp gw bs bunuh seorang ato lbh dri 1 org guru krn gw g suka dy, gw brhrp gw bs ngncurin laptop gw sndiri biar dpt laptop baru, gw berharap kluarga gw tunduk sma gw, gw brhrp gw brkuasa dll.
gw rasa tulisan d atas cukup jahat.lbh jahatny lgi, gw brhrp gw bs sllu dpt ap yg gw mw g pduli apapun carany (minumny teh botol sosro) !
iy...gw blg jahat abis..
wah parah lw sil
so gw pun bingung...knp gw msi d biarkan hidup?pdhl gw jahatny bkn maen.masi ad org yg pduli sma gw, g pduli gw jahat bgt sama mrk.masi ad org yg mw mncintai gw pdhl gw ud ud jahat bgt sma mrk,ud bkin sakit ati mgkin aj gw ud bkin mrk hmpir bunuh diri. knp?
gw pny prtnyaan yg bwt gw sndiri bingung:
'knp gw d lhirkan? untuk ap? tujuan gw ap?'
prtnyaan ini slalu ad d kpala gw..yah gmn y..nny org gw jamin pada kaga tw adany gw yg bingung sndiri..gtu dh mkny.seandainy ad yg bs jwb prtnyaan gw dan betul, gw mw ngbulin satu permintaan dh (sebisa gw dan sesuai dgn kondisi gw).ap aj selama, memenuhi kriteria pda kalimat sblmny. hahhaa
bs baca kn?
trima kasih tlh mmbaca blog aneh ini. trutma pada hari ini..aneh bgt, jgn trllu d pkirkan makasi:)
yah pkokny gw itu jahat!
ad sisi gw baek tpi gw brasa jauh lbh jahat drpd baek!!!
gw kdg brhrp org yg gw g suka ato bahkan gw bnci mnding mati, g us blik k dunia ini lagi. gw kdg brhrp seandainy gw bs mmbunuh ssorang yg bnr2 gw sebel, g pduli syp pun itu.gw brhrp gw bs ngncurin stu tmpt yg gw bnci, brhrp gw bs bunuh seorang ato lbh dri 1 org guru krn gw g suka dy, gw brhrp gw bs ngncurin laptop gw sndiri biar dpt laptop baru, gw berharap kluarga gw tunduk sma gw, gw brhrp gw brkuasa dll.
gw rasa tulisan d atas cukup jahat.lbh jahatny lgi, gw brhrp gw bs sllu dpt ap yg gw mw g pduli apapun carany (minumny teh botol sosro) !
iy...gw blg jahat abis..
wah parah lw sil
so gw pun bingung...knp gw msi d biarkan hidup?pdhl gw jahatny bkn maen.masi ad org yg pduli sma gw, g pduli gw jahat bgt sama mrk.masi ad org yg mw mncintai gw pdhl gw ud ud jahat bgt sma mrk,ud bkin sakit ati mgkin aj gw ud bkin mrk hmpir bunuh diri. knp?
gw pny prtnyaan yg bwt gw sndiri bingung:
'knp gw d lhirkan? untuk ap? tujuan gw ap?'
prtnyaan ini slalu ad d kpala gw..yah gmn y..nny org gw jamin pada kaga tw adany gw yg bingung sndiri..gtu dh mkny.seandainy ad yg bs jwb prtnyaan gw dan betul, gw mw ngbulin satu permintaan dh (sebisa gw dan sesuai dgn kondisi gw).ap aj selama, memenuhi kriteria pda kalimat sblmny. hahhaa
bs baca kn?
trima kasih tlh mmbaca blog aneh ini. trutma pada hari ini..aneh bgt, jgn trllu d pkirkan makasi:)
9.13.2010
i'm no good girl
yeah sprti judul d atas, gw g bs d blg orang yg bener2 g baek..
pengen gtu yah jadi anak baek, trus bnyk tmn, yah pemalu, yah yg simple!
yang normal! g kyk gw!
yah gmn soalny tuh gini:
everytime you want to help someone, you ruin it and they dislike you or else cos most people do, believe it.
i want to be trustworthy, yet people thinks i'm not good enough.they always want more from me and i'll just end up suffering in my own despair.
when they need me, i'll be there and ready to help, but they think i'm just getting in their way or something.
and all the bad things, that's my life.
once i ever lose everything in my life and the next i did was the intention to kill myself.but God still loves me for who i am, and here i am, a stronger, better person.i don't know how people thinks of me but here's what i think, they think of me:
ingrate, loudmouth, unworthy, stupid, arrogant, maniac, lazy,kepo, geek, nerd and many other things.
i'm just being honest, maybe you're right! I AM THAT KIND OF PERSON!
I AM NOT A GOOD GIRL AS YOU MAY THINK! just becos i help them doesn't always count as something good right? what if i help them to do something bad and i didn't know about it and it the end i was accused wrongly?
it happens.it did.
and when there're many things i want and when i fight for it, i lost it and i give up easily.i suck at many things.i'm a loner, i was called emo but that ain't me.i never hated the world, i just hate the way it moves at me.
but then again, i never lose hope.not once ever more.even if in the end i must lost, then so be it. i will try as much to gain something and to give everything with all of me.i want to be accepted by others and i must accept myself.
commiting to others and also commited to oneself. i am as much as loser but i won't let that name hangs for the rest of my life.
i'm just me.
i think of the world this way:
'you and i live in two different worlds.maybe you live in the fantasy where most of your dream came true.me?i lived in the world called reality, where good things never happen to me and that's why, i have to fight for it, by myself if i must.'
and here i am, nothing but a human.human perhaps with the soul of warrior.perhaps.
i always takes demon as my name but the real me?
anybody's guess...
pengen gtu yah jadi anak baek, trus bnyk tmn, yah pemalu, yah yg simple!
yang normal! g kyk gw!
yah gmn soalny tuh gini:
everytime you want to help someone, you ruin it and they dislike you or else cos most people do, believe it.
i want to be trustworthy, yet people thinks i'm not good enough.they always want more from me and i'll just end up suffering in my own despair.
when they need me, i'll be there and ready to help, but they think i'm just getting in their way or something.
and all the bad things, that's my life.
once i ever lose everything in my life and the next i did was the intention to kill myself.but God still loves me for who i am, and here i am, a stronger, better person.i don't know how people thinks of me but here's what i think, they think of me:
ingrate, loudmouth, unworthy, stupid, arrogant, maniac, lazy,kepo, geek, nerd and many other things.
i'm just being honest, maybe you're right! I AM THAT KIND OF PERSON!
I AM NOT A GOOD GIRL AS YOU MAY THINK! just becos i help them doesn't always count as something good right? what if i help them to do something bad and i didn't know about it and it the end i was accused wrongly?
it happens.it did.
and when there're many things i want and when i fight for it, i lost it and i give up easily.i suck at many things.i'm a loner, i was called emo but that ain't me.i never hated the world, i just hate the way it moves at me.
but then again, i never lose hope.not once ever more.even if in the end i must lost, then so be it. i will try as much to gain something and to give everything with all of me.i want to be accepted by others and i must accept myself.
commiting to others and also commited to oneself. i am as much as loser but i won't let that name hangs for the rest of my life.
i'm just me.
i think of the world this way:
'you and i live in two different worlds.maybe you live in the fantasy where most of your dream came true.me?i lived in the world called reality, where good things never happen to me and that's why, i have to fight for it, by myself if i must.'
and here i am, nothing but a human.human perhaps with the soul of warrior.perhaps.
i always takes demon as my name but the real me?
anybody's guess...
9.09.2010
Doakan saya survive....di liburan ini
yeah doakan saya!soalny bakal sibuk bgt nih!noooooooooh
yes noh bgt msti bnyk krja jg trnyt drpd bwt pr.ngmg2 pr gw blm bwt gsp.makin noh!
ahhhhhhh gw sebel bgt ttp ad pr.mana projek gw jg blm slese.teoteot
monyong lah.ah gw mkin bt sih krn gw rasa, s cw yg d sukain dy tuh msi suka, tpi g mw jujur!!!!
gw g suka crny, mnding lnsg jujur aj napa!jdi gw tw ap yg hrs gw lakuin next!gw tuh ud gregetan sndri.
but i don't have the rights to own you nor you owning me but i still take my chances even if i would have failed in the end.at least i failed with trying than doing nothing no?
huaaa tpi gw sedih aj..psti gw akan ad rasa iri dan sebgainy pdhl aku tak pnya hak!
maafkan aku...
gw jd mrsa gw tak bs menandingi cewe itu..gw brsa lose hope tapi gw rasa itu bkn akhr dri line gw.seandainy mereka jdian, fine gw akan mundur.tpi gw g akn mundur slmny dri posisi bestfren dan akan sllu bntu dy..dan menunggu my time
yes noh bgt msti bnyk krja jg trnyt drpd bwt pr.ngmg2 pr gw blm bwt gsp.makin noh!
ahhhhhhh gw sebel bgt ttp ad pr.mana projek gw jg blm slese.teoteot
monyong lah.ah gw mkin bt sih krn gw rasa, s cw yg d sukain dy tuh msi suka, tpi g mw jujur!!!!
gw g suka crny, mnding lnsg jujur aj napa!jdi gw tw ap yg hrs gw lakuin next!gw tuh ud gregetan sndri.
but i don't have the rights to own you nor you owning me but i still take my chances even if i would have failed in the end.at least i failed with trying than doing nothing no?
huaaa tpi gw sedih aj..psti gw akan ad rasa iri dan sebgainy pdhl aku tak pnya hak!
maafkan aku...
gw jd mrsa gw tak bs menandingi cewe itu..gw brsa lose hope tapi gw rasa itu bkn akhr dri line gw.seandainy mereka jdian, fine gw akan mundur.tpi gw g akn mundur slmny dri posisi bestfren dan akan sllu bntu dy..dan menunggu my time
9.08.2010
Walk with me
Walk with me? yeah ini untuk menjelaskan perubahan hidup gw..gw rasa lumayan drastis yah..see gw itu dulu:
belagu
cupu
culun
g bisa ap2
maen nabok
males bgt
gmpng marah
oversombong
bokep abis
pesimis
gmpng nangis (cengeng tai babi)
tpi sekarang gw telah melihat perbedaan diri gw...sgt jelas skali saya pun tak menyangka:
makin gelo
cool
pede abis
maen kata
nyolot
bokep makin berkelas
optimis optimis parno
ud mnggunakan cops yg brarti ud g cupu
ud bs bnyk hal (makan tidur maen)
dll i'msocoollike
yeah but sometimes gw pikir gini:
"who walks with me when I change my path? Anyone?"
not many walks with me actually.
ad wktu itu 1 cowo.dy mnghrpkan prubahan dri gw ..oke gw brubah kn dan gw mnta ama dy tlg jagain gw untuk brubah.dy oke2 aj.fine
gw jlnin sprti biasa, mncoba ingt untuk brubah.ok gw prlhn brubah. eh twny, org itu ninggalin gw pas gw lagi butuh2ny
wktu itu gw bnr2 sdih smpe doooooooooooooooown bgt tpi skrg ud i don't care.
trus gw ktmu tmn2 gw yg lm dan gw blg k mrk gw coba brubah..1 per1 ninggalin, cuma mnyisakan 1 of the best from all of them.cuma anak ini yang bener2 ngejagain gw slma gw brubah.
trnyt, dy aj g cukup, gw brtm kmbli dgn musuh gw dan kt bersilahturahmi (maaf2an).kt bener2 keren krn tali silahturahmi kita tuh cpet bgt until bestfriends.gw pun akhrny blg klo gw mw brubah bla bla bla.dy akhrny nyemangatin gw abis2an, support sebesar2ny.gw seneng bgt.g prlu gw sbut namany, you know me:)
trus 3 bestfriend laenny, cowo (yg d ats jg) itu pun smua gw mnta bntu brubah tpi cma 1 d antara 3 yg tanggapanny bener2 ngerasa bwt gw.thanks bgt..you know me well:)
yah pkokny klo gw sortir yg bener2 ad bwt...3 orang
3 people who actually walks with me all this time
Thanks guys, you're always be in my heart (Y)
love you guys
thanks for all this time
always
belagu
cupu
culun
g bisa ap2
maen nabok
males bgt
gmpng marah
oversombong
bokep abis
pesimis
gmpng nangis (cengeng tai babi)
tpi sekarang gw telah melihat perbedaan diri gw...sgt jelas skali saya pun tak menyangka:
makin gelo
cool
pede abis
maen kata
nyolot
bokep makin berkelas
optimis optimis parno
ud mnggunakan cops yg brarti ud g cupu
ud bs bnyk hal (makan tidur maen)
dll i'msocoollike
yeah but sometimes gw pikir gini:
"who walks with me when I change my path? Anyone?"
not many walks with me actually.
ad wktu itu 1 cowo.dy mnghrpkan prubahan dri gw ..oke gw brubah kn dan gw mnta ama dy tlg jagain gw untuk brubah.dy oke2 aj.fine
gw jlnin sprti biasa, mncoba ingt untuk brubah.ok gw prlhn brubah. eh twny, org itu ninggalin gw pas gw lagi butuh2ny
wktu itu gw bnr2 sdih smpe doooooooooooooooown bgt tpi skrg ud i don't care.
trus gw ktmu tmn2 gw yg lm dan gw blg k mrk gw coba brubah..1 per1 ninggalin, cuma mnyisakan 1 of the best from all of them.cuma anak ini yang bener2 ngejagain gw slma gw brubah.
trnyt, dy aj g cukup, gw brtm kmbli dgn musuh gw dan kt bersilahturahmi (maaf2an).kt bener2 keren krn tali silahturahmi kita tuh cpet bgt until bestfriends.gw pun akhrny blg klo gw mw brubah bla bla bla.dy akhrny nyemangatin gw abis2an, support sebesar2ny.gw seneng bgt.g prlu gw sbut namany, you know me:)
trus 3 bestfriend laenny, cowo (yg d ats jg) itu pun smua gw mnta bntu brubah tpi cma 1 d antara 3 yg tanggapanny bener2 ngerasa bwt gw.thanks bgt..you know me well:)
yah pkokny klo gw sortir yg bener2 ad bwt...3 orang
3 people who actually walks with me all this time
Thanks guys, you're always be in my heart (Y)
love you guys
thanks for all this time
always
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