filler about you guys

hmm how's it been? pretty long but i managed to find something to talk about.
nearly a month after UAN ... so soon huh?

ok so what i want to talk about here is: gossip

yes yes lots of many people just loveeeeee to gossip on almost everything like clothes, music, food, people or specific person.
guess what? i hate gossips and those who gossips and even those who spread these things out. what are you guys, so damn bored you talked about others? get a life..

why i hate gossips and all its kin?
cos it's a double edge blade, get what i'm saying here?

well here's my example.
for some reason, i'm never the quite person. i'm a wild girl for my age. i'm unique and i love myself.but only few people actually accept me for who i am.
so the story goes, i'm restless and sometimes fight with others.no fist, just plain talk. well it's only for jokes seriously.
let's say we have a chat room.in this chat room, certain friends of mine love to create a mess here and there and who could have thought i got involved and also join the mess. peh, i never thought until then, someone would talk about me saying i create all sorts of trouble in the chat room which i hardly does. so much for being me.

look, the point is, start gossiping about someone and someday you'll have someone gossiping you. this is what a double edge blade means.

you don't know me or what happens. sure i know you're gonna get so damn annoyed but don't you dare talk about me when you don't know who i am.
wanna know what i think about you? maybe you shouldn't.
someone with two faced like you deserves nothing of the sort.
right, like it gives me anything.
sorry i got carried away i'm just mad. i don't like it when people talk behind my back. if you troubles with me, just talk to me! why's the fear? i'm not going to bite your head off >(
why can't people be honest to others?
if you talk these things to me, i wouldn't be so mad, no?
at least i would understand and refrain myself from creating any mess.
now how did we end up in this?
cao

a post? in the middle of UAN?(almost the end, actually)

hey hey it's been a while:)
well i'm too darn lazy but let's get down to the topic

hmm suggestions?
nothing comes in mind, really.
i've been bored (despite all the facts pointing that i must study for UAN, which makes me even more hopeless in searching of something to do)..
I'VE BEEN REALLY BORED I MIGHT DIE

yeah.so.forget about the dying part.
ok so i came up with...
UAN?no. too damn boring
so
how bout SHOWS and PERFORMANCES?

truth be told, i've been itching to one myself, intentionally of course.
since all this time (recently, i mean), i was called for shows but unintentionally and unprepared thus, well, i ended up just fine though.still in one piece.

talk about shows, i do have an opportunity.i didn't have any means to shine or whatsoever people like to call, being famous?nah, that ruins my image.
so i want to perform because, i want to!
i like to entertain others, in a good way (Y)
especially music! and jokes.. hehe
well, unintentional jokes are far better than my intended jokes.dunno why.
instinct?maybe

so..i've been thinking about the performances ever since.
it may seem ridiculous but, i want to uphold shows and performances more than anything (like school works. realtionship still number one though(Y)).
even since we're preparing for UAN and UAS, my mind reeled up with ideas for shows.
'how to do this, that, prepare stuffs etc etc.'
i've practiced a few pieces too and i really really want to go on a show.
but what i lack is confidence==a...so much for the efforts.
i'm thinking not to waste it n going to work extra harder! YEAH!
what's the pieces you say?hahaha it's a secret:)

but before i keep babbling about this, i REALLY need to focus on my final UAN because there's someone i want to beat!i'm not gonna quit.
actually i'm quit upset there wasn't a bet about beating this guy but, my reputation on the line so i guess i can think of it as the bet hahhaa.
of course, we should remember what Mr. Adidas says, 'Impossible is nothing!'
YEAH!!!!
i can do this like all of you can rite?what to worry about hahaha
so okay done with this there's something i want to ask:

1. is there something that you really want to do after this damn UAN or basically a work?
2. do you feel like i do to?getting all fired up like that i mean
3. confidence!u got that or what?
4. mind telling me how to be confident in oneself?:)

thanks i look forward to the replies (if i have some)
gao gao

This sounds weird

i know this sounds weird but i actually PLAYED GAMES IN THE MIDDLE OF TESTS WEEKS.
i have never. again, NEVER done this until now but guess what, it was a huge breakthrough. my score's rocketting(Y)
good for me
*don't try this at home. professionals only (which is me :P)

i made quite the mess with myself, i guess but hey! i'm being productive here as I work on my projects intensively and all, yada yada. i tried being creative much and create weird stuffs out of weird stuffs so basically

weird + weird = weirder

the weirder, the better. well not many people see things the way i do but i don't mind that. one day, they'll acknowledge me. and please don't say i'm an evil scientist or mad person cos i'm not.
i'm just not normal

just kidding
but seriously.

okok, today's topic is... Test!
peh, boring?high-five!
so, it's been like weeks my schools are having test for us ninth graders.it's great actually, i love it especially the part when you-get-to-sleep-at-class-when-you're-done-with-the-test-while-waiting-for-the-time-to-go-home-at-10-am-in-the-morning.
(when i said am, i probably shouldn't said morning.)
awesome part ya?
high-five if you agreed:)

so all these tests are driving me crazy?
if u ask the others, they'll probably say yes.
me?you've got to be joking. THIS IS THE BEST PART EVER!
i don't know, i'm kinda retarded?maybe
when everyone suffers, i seem to get the good grab
when everyone had a great time, i'm the one suffering D:
well, this test has been a great time for me to relax.except the part where my parents got angry at me everytime they don't see me study so i always have to hold on to a book or two or scattered papers across the floor of my room, even better.
yeah, it's a great deal but i've been enjoying it. keeps me from stressing out cos i'm already a stressed out person and i don't need people to tell me that i've gone mad and weirder.
in any case i've lost my mind writing stupid posts, please ignore my lame-a-bility.
and if you have fun reading this stuffs, maybe u should get a doctor.
so
bye

never post much

it's been a while actually for me to post again.let's say i'm too lazy to update.
yeah i'm just a teenage and enjoying my life to the fullest
so i've been having hard time in exams actually and it's kind of sucks
i didn't say that i sucks at almost everything now but math and physics?
go to hell

now
the main point i want to talk about today is a malpractice? yeah that's right
i've been watching some news on tv and believe me you don't want to end up like that.
well there's this baby girl whose having a disease at that time.however when being transferred to the hospital and being infused with some liquid (you know the douche bag thing?), her hands began to burn almost immediately and her little finger...
it fell off by itself.
scary huh?
i was wondering how the hell at the same time.
to be honest, i don't get what people are thinking these days.so childish
playing with lives so easily like that. even the government
great this is my least favorite subject: GOVERNMENT!
my GOD! what the hell man?! what's with you people?! building some more DPR building in Indonesia people could get stuck and killed!
why don't they think of other things useful anyway?!
seriously, how selfish.i don't care if you guys would search for me, accuse me and throw me to jail, I DON'T CARE! i believe i'm not at fault here cos i'm speaking the truth.
truth where many people could not have a better life because of the stuck-up government.stupid laws that are not obeyed by you yourselves.if you're not gonna put up some effort maybe you should just rot in hell.
we are counting on you and you cheated on us?how's that fair to us?
you selfish bastards should have gone like miles away from us! maybe we could handle things better than you cos we're listening to what the people needs.
yeah that's it.
i'm tired talking like this
i apologize for many words that i wrote here but hey, i'm in a democratic country!
i have the right to speak even if i'm not seventeen! damn right!

Hey how's it goin?

hi guys! you see it's been a while since I've open up my blog.really i was having a hard time and since i'm a ninth grader (which is SMP 3 in Indonesian terms) i'll be dealing with lots of work and try-outs to pass the exam. right, i'm bad at math, duh.

so i'm not really hyper at studying, i bet most of you guys r not hyper either. well but still, i need to. too bad candies won't make me hyper. pathetic

okay, school's performances were not so fun as last years and it's been seriously nagging in my head. i can't say i hate it but it's just so..uncool.
how to describe that?

yeah like no one would actually watch some 14 years old teenage girl who happens to be playing on a piano with the song Cloud Smiles, you bet!

that's all for now..until then
ciao!

fuck this

projek...mw ap coba?!makan tai masa cuma bwt majalah aj biaya bs ampe sejuta! FUCK THIS! GW G SLH NULIS JUDUL! MATI GILA TU ORG NYURU BWT MAJALAH D VERNIS LAH PAKE ART PAPER LAH KASI SEKOLAH LAH!! MAKAN NI KAME KAME HA!!!

(pemikiran orang stres)

i hope you guys read this

well just so you know, i've been lately a little bit on my boring state so yeah, i might want to ask (and now currently asking) you guys to actually give me questions so i could overcome my boredom and everything in between..yeah.this all projects are giving me headache recently and i have no time to lay low..
and perhaps i need feedbacks too:)
well thanks to those who always visiting my blog.i hope you're not virus:D
again thanks so much!

video editing

well another school project and guess what?
it's so damn annoying!!!
argh there're about 5 or more and are not done now this?!
seriously, what is school thinking?

so the thing that I've been doing is this video editing.we have to make a music video from the song 'old tige' (whatever that is, i don't recommend it) by Jim Reeves.
seriously, i'll give you the lyric and yet, it was beyond my expectation..worst.

(Tige you were faithful faithful to the end
Tige how I miss you you were my best friend)
Three years of Army Service done and I was headin' home at last.
I got to thinking bout my dog and things long gone and past.
How old Tige pulled me from the creek when I had no pulse or breath,
and how he saved me from the chargin' bull that gored my Dad to death.
As a kid I'd dream of bears and tremble to my toes
Till old Tige come up to my bed and nudge me with his nose.
Then my fears would melt away and Tige would go lie down,
I'd drift on back to sleep without another sound.
The big bus stopped I got off - it was awful dark and thick with fog.
Then something gently nuzzled me and there stood Tige my dog.
I wondered if my faithful dog had met the bus each day
And all the dreary winter nights since I'd been away.
To have Tige meet me here like this, I was...I was really glad
'Cause I hadn't needed Tige so much since the day they'd buried Dad.
Two long miles still lay ahead, but what I didn't know
A giant Dam was being built where the old road used to go.
I thank the Lord for sending Tige and I followed where he led,
Knowing well without his help that I'd be good as dead.
Tige inched along this way and that, going rough and slow,
And I could hear the water lappin' at the ledges far below.
Then through the mist I saw a light and mother in her chair,
I reached down to pet old Tige but he wasn't there.
I'm thankful Mom you had old Tige these three lonely years
I owe my life to him tonight, I couldn't help my tears.
You say you wrote me bout the Dam, well, God was sure with us
I didn't get your letter, Mom, but old Tige met the bus.
I hate to tell you son, she said, but now you've got to know.
When you left it broke his heart...Tige died three years ago.
(You were my best friend)

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WHAT KIND OF SONG?! n my teacher was saying that it was actually ballad..the hell?
i'm not really into this...

yes yes so many virus here

so let's see..i thought now my C-box was ran over by virus, seeing those comments everyday. well if you really read my post then tell me about it don't just say nice info or anything or i'll wipe you out already..
talk about sour grapes..
this is serious anyway, guys. those kind of virus are actually everywhere and on some points, they have ran over perhaps a certain system..then again, these viruses can actually be somewhat of use but you face your consequences then..but seriously, this is all annoying!!
so whoever makes this that makes my c-box useless, i'm gonna search you and rip you off! don't tell me it's impossible! it will be possible, i mind you..
so shut up already and go to hell if you keep doing this..what's life to you?get something, seriously..

dude i just saw this horoscope and it's damn accurate

freakinly scary! i don't believe it!
but damn it's accurate...

i'm a gemini so this is how it goes here on the daily overview:

Overview

You'd never complain about being too busy on any other day but today. For now, though, you'd just as soon go back to bed rather than face all those tasks, appointments and meetings. It's over soon.

You're witty, sharp and funny, and you learned a long time ago to listen to your gut. At the moment, that built-in radar is telling you that there's something coming up. The good news is that what's on the agenda isn't going to be at all unpleasant. You'll probably end up being quite delighted with the surprise the heavens have in store for you. In the meantime, grant an audience to someone who's asked to speak with you in private.

A rowdy outing or scrimmage will be exactly the thing you need today. Look out for you-know-who. A locked gaze filled with meaning won't happen if you're just talking, but play soccer and you never know what might happen.

Isn't it great being a Gemini? All that charm, that mental flexibility, that ability to see both sides of the issue ... you're the wonder of the zodiac. Take a bow. The problem with that is that both sides of the issue have been kind of a drag. Good news: that's all going to change in the next year!

Gemini is one of the few Sun signs that doesn't have an animal symbol, but this may be the year that all of that changes. In the past few years, with Pluto opposing your sign, you've been a little like a monkey, swinging from branch to branch trying desperately to keep one step ahead of the predators and keep yourself fed. With Pluto now moved on into Capricorn, a lot of the major partnership issues you've faced will be lightening up. You'll still retain the swing, but this year you're going to feel a lot more like a hummingbird: still mobile, still getting things done, but in a much more elegant manner.

Your renowned intellect has been strained the last couple of years, as it's been forced to find solutions to the many issues you've been dealt. In 2010, you'll finally be gaining some traction on your biggest challenges, and solutions will flow to you with ease.

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end straight here.
so,some of them (the bold ones) which are accurate for all the reading..i don't believe horoscopes though but it fits somehow which is annoying.

1. yeah today i was complaining about this and that right before the school is over.damn right projects are flowing like freakin jackpot machine

2.well i guess myself though some of them seems fun i mean i had mostly came the problems with ease which makes me smiles a lot (don't mention score, it's the bad news)

3. well, locked gaze?not really my style, i'd rather sit back and watch.maybe things are going straight into plan then again, i need to 'play soccer'?the soccer part is kind of scary...relates somehow

4. the little monkey is actually the character of Final Fantasy IX which has a tail like a monkey and he's so kawaii! (cute) especially in Dissidia. yeah, unintentionally i've been watching some scenes of final fantasy ix which includes him as the main character (well yeah) and i've been replaying the song melodies of life in my play (piano)..go figure

5. the hummingbird part, which now i wore all the time. earring of hummingbirds given recently from my mother, and a ring of hummingbird; both for good fortune..now ain't that scary?


you see...i would repeat again that i don't believe in those horoscopes cos it's kind of crap and probably for me it's just for fun but after seeing these..it's gonna worth reading it but again, i'm not 100% sure. i mean there's no way i'll get a boyfriend in the 30th of November regardless of the effort i have done (none i guess) and it's not funny..

okay see you then:)

yooo

yeah gw bru aj selese bwt tugas mat ama temen gw si shierly wkwkwkwk...ud g jls bwtny gw ampe pusing2 ndiri tpi amin lah..jadi hehehe

okok cm itu aj wkwkkwkkw tw ah mw nulis ap

byeeee

i'm not that kind

yeah gmn y akhr2 ni gw suka rada bete tpi ttp gw pksa senyum..
k org yg lg gw dendem ksumet stngh idup aj gw snyumin, demi mnjaga nama baik tmn gw..

y gw tipe org setia mngkin tpi ada saatny gw meledak dan g ad yg bakal bs berentiin gw..jd gw hrp hal ini tdk trjadi

gw bingung aj lah tw dh mw ngapain pkokny post kli ni rada serius.no jokes guys.i know it's sad.i used to post lots of crappy jokes that would make your ass falls off anyway..

yeah see ya until i get better

hey semuany saya kembali!

yap setelah libur panjang ngepost blog krn kelewat males dan topikny yg mw d bicarain kelewat seru, gw g nulis hahhha:)

abis mid nih..tai abis:0 tpi gpp lah i can do it! i know i can:)

trima kasih atas smua bantuan yg d berikan trtama rahmat dari Jesus yah! Thx Jesus:)
dan teman2 sepermainan, keluarga seperumahan, pembantu seperlantai-atas-bawahan dan BONI my lovely dog sepertuan-dan-anjingan.

kalimat d atas dapat membuat anda rusak jadi tidak perlu d baca berulang-ulang aplg mencari artiny d kamus besar bahasa indonesia.
nah

selama mid, inilah hasilny:

MIE- uooo g nyangka ad soal yg indah bgt:) trimakasi!
Mat- mati lah..g jg sih gw bs tpi g yakin. BAKAR YG BUAT SOAL!
PKN- makan tai....CEBURIN YG BUAT SOAL!
BI- NOOOOH BGT AP ITU SECRET OF MONACRE?!
FISIKA- okelah kalo begitu...KUBUR YANG BUAT SOAL!
BIOLOGY- hahaahha bisa lah! SEMBAH YG BUAT SOAL! (tpi krna itu guru yg ngaco, coret sembahny)
IPS- AMIN! PUJI TUHAN YANG BUAT SOAL SOALNY DY BAEK !

yah trims semuany dah..g ush pnjg lebar lagi ..gw mls
hahahha
okay gw akn pny nama tetap untuk blog gw..gw harap ada poling nih hahaa
see ya