hey there all, it's me Katar! so yeah it's been.. i don't know you do the math. so anyway a little sharing stories; i have successfully made another story (yay!) and hopefully i can continue it into a saga or something (fingers crossed).
i made the characters into drawing just like what i did on Winged Sword, my never-finished story (sad). So I'll start to introduce the very basic of the world in where all the story enveloped; the world of nothingness, The Void. By the way, all story within the Void revolves around stars as I want to state that these stars aren't just normal ray of light.
The Void
An empty world space, free of the reach of time and space. Consider it another dimension where only weird and mythological creatures/beings could live. What it means by free of the reach of time and space is that the world itself owns a different time flows than our world aka the Human World. Within the Void, many worlds float by their own mechanisms, each of them connected by the one and only pathways, Fleuve Etoile or in other words, River Star. So far, some worlds were still left in the mist of darkness, untouched yet but as the story progress, more and more worlds will be discovered. The Void, once again, has unique residences that ignore time flows (not all) because the time itself has momentarily stopped. Most of them oblivious, most of them has long forgotten the existence of time.
So first thing first is to get to know about this world! Get to know better by asking me on my formspring here; http://www.formspring.me/katarsilvia
that's it for now and i hope i can continue it in another post!
Gaogaoooo~
-Katar
11.23.2012
5.15.2012
Just My Dream and Motivation
it wasn't a dream of fairytale.. i just want to share it with you guys because it's kind of disturbing for me.. the images were too vivid. could it be our future? maybe i'm just exaggerating but well, comments guys. tell me what you think about it.__.
'humanity was on the verge of collapsing
barren lands
hardly any water
several of us (me and my friends) were survivors
we survived through the hard terrain and wastelands, the rest of the world were zombified, feeding one another
we somehow wound up into a running city
humans, but they're inhuman
we were sent for execution after we set foot in the city
they blockaded our way in and out
we were trapped like mice
of course, i was so angry i asked them why the execution
their snotty leader said, they can't be sure if we're infected or not and that's another mouth to feed for them and they said that they've trapped the underground subway full of zombies if we wanna get out
it's impossible for any of them to venture down so we were sent there to our deaths if not the death by bullets
well, i had to lead all of you guys down there but we're like a whole swarm of ants
i couldn't be sure to handle a large group
a really nice native came to us saying he was told to lead us down the tunnel
he felt sorry for us and i see he tried to help us
but he couldn't so we parted ways, he had to return and we have to venture down
it was really dark and i can sense the dead roaming about
but in the darkness i saw my other friend; it was T.
he pointed a safe route for us and then disappeared
i warned the others not to get separated and split the team into teams of capable fighter; me, R, D, E, J(?!), several others n the 'civilians'; i don't remember either
we made our way into the darkness, i wasn't sure of T's direction n heading for an armory to the left (opposite of T's direction)
we grabbed as many weapons as we could and head back to the 'civilians'; they were attacked we panicked, some were even bitten and i had to shoot them,
another horde came and i don't remember the rest
but i managed to survive just me, D, R, E and..J (in real life, J is an idiot; i don't think he would've made the capable fighters)-___- T was with the other FEVER members (FEVER is my band; there are 8 of us)
the rest were dead
I SWEAR J WAS SO RECKLESS I MIGHT HAVE SHOOT HIM IN THE HEAD THE MOMENT I GOT MYSELF A GUN
he had this flashlight and swung it around like a toy when from afar there was a zombie wandering and if it notices us, we're doomed before any of us could get our hands to any weapons so i told R to muffled him (in the first place)
it was a bloodbath n we were lucky T and the FEVER were already inside
n good for them they found themselves a safe house
i dunno if this dream is going to have continual
maybe there is no way out from there'
scary? there're lots of things scarier than this but imagined; humanity collapsed, barren lands, scarce water. this is one of our many possible future if we don't do anything from now. people, let's save our planet! there is no place like home!
'humanity was on the verge of collapsing
barren lands
hardly any water
several of us (me and my friends) were survivors
we survived through the hard terrain and wastelands, the rest of the world were zombified, feeding one another
we somehow wound up into a running city
humans, but they're inhuman
we were sent for execution after we set foot in the city
they blockaded our way in and out
we were trapped like mice
of course, i was so angry i asked them why the execution
their snotty leader said, they can't be sure if we're infected or not and that's another mouth to feed for them and they said that they've trapped the underground subway full of zombies if we wanna get out
it's impossible for any of them to venture down so we were sent there to our deaths if not the death by bullets
well, i had to lead all of you guys down there but we're like a whole swarm of ants
i couldn't be sure to handle a large group
a really nice native came to us saying he was told to lead us down the tunnel
he felt sorry for us and i see he tried to help us
but he couldn't so we parted ways, he had to return and we have to venture down
it was really dark and i can sense the dead roaming about
but in the darkness i saw my other friend; it was T.
he pointed a safe route for us and then disappeared
i warned the others not to get separated and split the team into teams of capable fighter; me, R, D, E, J(?!), several others n the 'civilians'; i don't remember either
we made our way into the darkness, i wasn't sure of T's direction n heading for an armory to the left (opposite of T's direction)
we grabbed as many weapons as we could and head back to the 'civilians'; they were attacked we panicked, some were even bitten and i had to shoot them,
another horde came and i don't remember the rest
but i managed to survive just me, D, R, E and..J (in real life, J is an idiot; i don't think he would've made the capable fighters)-___- T was with the other FEVER members (FEVER is my band; there are 8 of us)
the rest were dead
I SWEAR J WAS SO RECKLESS I MIGHT HAVE SHOOT HIM IN THE HEAD THE MOMENT I GOT MYSELF A GUN
he had this flashlight and swung it around like a toy when from afar there was a zombie wandering and if it notices us, we're doomed before any of us could get our hands to any weapons so i told R to muffled him (in the first place)
it was a bloodbath n we were lucky T and the FEVER were already inside
n good for them they found themselves a safe house
i dunno if this dream is going to have continual
maybe there is no way out from there'
scary? there're lots of things scarier than this but imagined; humanity collapsed, barren lands, scarce water. this is one of our many possible future if we don't do anything from now. people, let's save our planet! there is no place like home!
5.11.2012
100th post!
well hello! it's been a while and first of all it's the first post in 2012 so far so hi peeps:)
100th post huh? i don't really what to write down but some stories i'd like to share
so let's start with the new school year; it's rough but hang in there, me, we're almost done:p
it has been a really up and down situation and nothing, NOTHING was ever like this...
i swear if this was a mistake, this is a seriously huge mistake i'm dealing with it..until now that is
i'm not sure on sharing that one but i'm going to ask though, what would you do if you think you just made a huge mistake, irreversible (definitely) and probably you'd felt guilty and regret about it?'
oh God, i hope i'm not doing so wrong or at least i know how to deal with this...
a jumble here and there, snicker-snack above the crack, fellas', i'm utterly healed of my 'broken' situation months ago and i'd like to say thanks; i've been reading your comments so far, it helped:)
there is nothing more interesting than the story of yourself and that you are able to let others know, enlightening them with the things you got from your own experience.
thanks guys and that is all for today
happy 100th post:)
10.31.2011
i don't want you to see i just wanna write something
like what's written above, i don't want you to see..
i'm just desperately wanna write it out..
i hate the feeling inside me that swells when i see you
i hate the tears inside me that swells when you're with her:(
i have no idea what to do and i hate it.
i hate it the way i don't know anything
like i've lost it all
like i need to turn around and start all over
BUT I WON'T START OVER!
there's no point in starting over when there's no you..
the only one who makes up my space..
i remember the day you said to me
'i could not imagine a world without you'
was it for real? or just another lie?
are there hopes? or just a broken string?
i really need a miracle but sometimes i felt like you're testing me..
why?
i'm just desperately wanna write it out..
i hate the feeling inside me that swells when i see you
i hate the tears inside me that swells when you're with her:(
i have no idea what to do and i hate it.
i hate it the way i don't know anything
like i've lost it all
like i need to turn around and start all over
BUT I WON'T START OVER!
there's no point in starting over when there's no you..
the only one who makes up my space..
i remember the day you said to me
'i could not imagine a world without you'
was it for real? or just another lie?
are there hopes? or just a broken string?
i really need a miracle but sometimes i felt like you're testing me..
why?
7.27.2011
Busy Life? Here's a Post
i post this as soon as i can so i hope to make it longer than the last one. try to think of it as my token of apology or whatever. haha
so yesterday i was going out at 6 pm to my english course, located near my house just a few blocks away, by a bike, still with my loosen headphone turned on.
it was windy, sure, but that's probably the best way to spend my night, somewhere out there:) hahaha so i basically didn't learn anything that day cos my teacher keeps talking about this and that. it's not in a bad way though, she's a very supportive teacher of mine and i respect her for that. she's very nice and like her name, she has a very 'SUNNY' personality. we talked for an hour, discussing what's going on these days. i also discussed some of my dreams to her like;
1. getting scholarships to somewhere out there
2. finding Harvard's requirements
3. learning more of TOEFL and IELTS
4. live band somewhere with my band
5. travelling & extreme sports
6. issues of Indonesia's before and after, then and now + future
and so many things we could think of. it was a very information-based conversation but it's not boring at all. in fact, i enjoyed it. this is probably the first time i met a teacher outside of school that does not making me sleep (besides Bu Linda) hahhaa. she even told me where i can generate my hobby into making money (my musical hobby that is), isn't that just awesome?
she said she knows a place where live band used to stage and i was so excited and still now. i told my friend and yes, she's excited too.
after that long chat, an hour passed so quickly. so i went home at 7 pm. during the way home, i don't know what's gotten into me but i screamed a song the whole way home. guess what, no one's around so there's no need to be ashamed of what i've done:) this is a stupid secret==a hahaha
so when i finally arrived home, i got back to my laptop as usual. still turned on cos i was downloading a movie 'No Strings Attached' played by Natalie Portman and Ashton Kutcher. here's a picture:
yeah, that night i watched it until midnight. it was a good movie regardless of the mature contents inside, it has a very interesting plot and inspirational, i guess. i'm not really sure what to say but it's really really great and i was thinking of watching it today:) it was awesome and funny too so it's not boring at all.
talk about movies, i'm currently downloading Resident Evil Quartrology played by Milla Jovovich. i'm a big fan of Resident Evil or Biohazard though i don't play any of it until recently i tried out one; Resident Evil 5 on ps3. it was a demo actually but it was very exciting. i know i'm not really a good gamer at it but it was worth the shot. the stories are interesting too(Y)
man, anyway, i'm currently really busy but i don't mind spending some of my time to this blog of mine. why? to lighten up the mood, that's why! yeah i've stressed out on my chemistry homework. not to mention there's another math homework and i haven't study economy for tomorrow. man i'm really a hardworker huh? yeah, i don't like being called smart or intelligent. i'd rather be called creative and a hardworking person. why? smart and intelligent are knowledge and information based and nothing else. how are you gonna survive with only that? that's when creativity and a perseverance (hardworking attitude) comes in handy. i wanna survive; that's my goal(Y) this is a harsh world after all. i have to adapt and improvise everything so it suits just fine:)
oh that reminds me of my old memories of listening to Project Pop whenever i'm not in the mood and yes, it still works(Y)! Project Pop is a really inspirational band of six people and they have funny and cheery songs that could lighten up your mood. i really recommend it to you guys.
oh yeah so if up till now what i've posted gone from one place to another well, i hardly stays at one topic for a long time because i usually gets confused unless i have the details. so that's it for today. i'll post again when i have the time or whenever i get bored from studying and reviewing my materials. thanks again for reading this blog, hope you like it and gives you inspiration. best wishes to you all. remember, creativity and hard-work is the key to survival but probably the most crucial thing is: FOOD.
hahhaha i'm serious about that anyway. so until then guys!
gao gao
so yesterday i was going out at 6 pm to my english course, located near my house just a few blocks away, by a bike, still with my loosen headphone turned on.
it was windy, sure, but that's probably the best way to spend my night, somewhere out there:) hahaha so i basically didn't learn anything that day cos my teacher keeps talking about this and that. it's not in a bad way though, she's a very supportive teacher of mine and i respect her for that. she's very nice and like her name, she has a very 'SUNNY' personality. we talked for an hour, discussing what's going on these days. i also discussed some of my dreams to her like;
1. getting scholarships to somewhere out there
2. finding Harvard's requirements
3. learning more of TOEFL and IELTS
4. live band somewhere with my band
5. travelling & extreme sports
6. issues of Indonesia's before and after, then and now + future
and so many things we could think of. it was a very information-based conversation but it's not boring at all. in fact, i enjoyed it. this is probably the first time i met a teacher outside of school that does not making me sleep (besides Bu Linda) hahhaa. she even told me where i can generate my hobby into making money (my musical hobby that is), isn't that just awesome?
she said she knows a place where live band used to stage and i was so excited and still now. i told my friend and yes, she's excited too.
after that long chat, an hour passed so quickly. so i went home at 7 pm. during the way home, i don't know what's gotten into me but i screamed a song the whole way home. guess what, no one's around so there's no need to be ashamed of what i've done:) this is a stupid secret==a hahaha
so when i finally arrived home, i got back to my laptop as usual. still turned on cos i was downloading a movie 'No Strings Attached' played by Natalie Portman and Ashton Kutcher. here's a picture:
yeah, that night i watched it until midnight. it was a good movie regardless of the mature contents inside, it has a very interesting plot and inspirational, i guess. i'm not really sure what to say but it's really really great and i was thinking of watching it today:) it was awesome and funny too so it's not boring at all.
talk about movies, i'm currently downloading Resident Evil Quartrology played by Milla Jovovich. i'm a big fan of Resident Evil or Biohazard though i don't play any of it until recently i tried out one; Resident Evil 5 on ps3. it was a demo actually but it was very exciting. i know i'm not really a good gamer at it but it was worth the shot. the stories are interesting too(Y)
man, anyway, i'm currently really busy but i don't mind spending some of my time to this blog of mine. why? to lighten up the mood, that's why! yeah i've stressed out on my chemistry homework. not to mention there's another math homework and i haven't study economy for tomorrow. man i'm really a hardworker huh? yeah, i don't like being called smart or intelligent. i'd rather be called creative and a hardworking person. why? smart and intelligent are knowledge and information based and nothing else. how are you gonna survive with only that? that's when creativity and a perseverance (hardworking attitude) comes in handy. i wanna survive; that's my goal(Y) this is a harsh world after all. i have to adapt and improvise everything so it suits just fine:)
oh that reminds me of my old memories of listening to Project Pop whenever i'm not in the mood and yes, it still works(Y)! Project Pop is a really inspirational band of six people and they have funny and cheery songs that could lighten up your mood. i really recommend it to you guys.
oh yeah so if up till now what i've posted gone from one place to another well, i hardly stays at one topic for a long time because i usually gets confused unless i have the details. so that's it for today. i'll post again when i have the time or whenever i get bored from studying and reviewing my materials. thanks again for reading this blog, hope you like it and gives you inspiration. best wishes to you all. remember, creativity and hard-work is the key to survival but probably the most crucial thing is: FOOD.
hahhaha i'm serious about that anyway. so until then guys!
gao gao
7.26.2011
Damn I'm Enjoying Life to the Point of Leaving It Be
yup like the title said;
i'm enjoying it till the time i screwed up for leaving it be..man this sucks
well there's a long story short i wanna tell;
just now, say about 5 o'clock in the evening, i just got back from cycling around to get my biology books and get my math books for binding. with loosen headphone hanging around my neck, loud songs played (Born This Way - Lady Gaga), i sat back on a chair, take my time and enjoying my glass of coke...
what a peaceful evening... too peaceful even i can't stand it==a
anyway, i was thinking so many stuffs in my head i thought i was gonna explode or just drop dead but yeah, no thanks. besides projects, i've grown accustomed to physics which is sort of scary and weird for me but still not for math==a
damn you math.
back to the story, that was part of what's on my mind but the majority was taken over something silly and stupid and not worth worrying about when i'm going to be so busy. just guess if you want. i mean, sometimes, do you feel like people took you for granted? or is it just me? i really hate being taken for granted cos i'll just look like a fool and someone's just trample on my pride.
i know pride's not everything but seriously, everybody at least have one, right?
anyway, this post is going to be short cos i'll be out for a while, need to take a break on the outside:p
i'll post one more at a later time if i'm not too busy.
thanks for reading whoever you are, strangers:)
gao gao
i'm enjoying it till the time i screwed up for leaving it be..man this sucks
well there's a long story short i wanna tell;
just now, say about 5 o'clock in the evening, i just got back from cycling around to get my biology books and get my math books for binding. with loosen headphone hanging around my neck, loud songs played (Born This Way - Lady Gaga), i sat back on a chair, take my time and enjoying my glass of coke...
what a peaceful evening... too peaceful even i can't stand it==a
anyway, i was thinking so many stuffs in my head i thought i was gonna explode or just drop dead but yeah, no thanks. besides projects, i've grown accustomed to physics which is sort of scary and weird for me but still not for math==a
damn you math.
back to the story, that was part of what's on my mind but the majority was taken over something silly and stupid and not worth worrying about when i'm going to be so busy. just guess if you want. i mean, sometimes, do you feel like people took you for granted? or is it just me? i really hate being taken for granted cos i'll just look like a fool and someone's just trample on my pride.
i know pride's not everything but seriously, everybody at least have one, right?
anyway, this post is going to be short cos i'll be out for a while, need to take a break on the outside:p
i'll post one more at a later time if i'm not too busy.
thanks for reading whoever you are, strangers:)
gao gao
7.23.2011
A Confidential Confidence
is it too early posting 2 blogs in a row?
well, just felt like doing so-_-
so hi again to the world and all of you strangers in between (we're all strangers, hell yeah) to whatever this is i'm doing with my time.
say, it's a blog.
anyway, i wanna share a quote that came in my mind today. not sure but here it is:
yep, still, it's true i never think myself as superior. normally, even if i do, i was joking around. me superior? right, the world's turning upside down. but maybe thinking myself as inferior being is what i do most which makes me sinful (well, we all do, just be honest)
there's this problem i have within me that caused me to think myself as an inferior;
i lack confidence.
yes, i have no talents at all in a confident manner. nothing. zero. end of the line. period.
pretty much, i'm upset the way it is. it hinders me from many things that i'm supposed to (or rather i 'was' supposed to) reach just because i'm afraid.
i brag in front of people sometimes so they won't found out what i really feel.
it's really anybody's guess. you get the idea.
sometimes, i wonder to myself, 'if i were this confident kind of girl, would it change anything? maybe change the way the world move towards me? change things that seems impossible to me? change the way i always feel about mostly anything? will it make any differences?'
anyone could guess a 'yes' on any of the above but, i'm not sure myself..
i am a sick person, who needs to be treated to call out those confidence that lies within me and kick out those unimportant such as the insecurities, afraid and other stuffs that doesn't count in myself to pursue a better future.
man, it's not easy, nothing's been easy hahaha
but i have this really great teacher (my acoustic guitar teacher; he has great confidence in whatever he is doing in music and he sounds really awesome! he looks like bruno mars too:p) who supports me in finding my confidence.
he said,
damn right.. i knew he's awesome (Y)
so how should i find the confidence i need?
it's simple;
just go crazy!
well, in a good way:P hahaha, this is a good reference to all of you who're shy like me (i'm not really shy but at some point, yes..)
you don't have to be a musician to be able to go crazy, everyone can go crazy!
that way you'll enjoy that very moment you change your view about life, about everything!
i don't have proof now on how it's done, but someday i will. just you wait!
i'm gonna be a future rockstar! well, not quite but yeah. hahaha
okay so anyway, if my posts are really getting too serious, well sorry:(
sometimes, i want to be known as serious too, not just some weirdo who happens to find out about things called 'blogging' and just posts some nonsense cos that's nonsense.
nonsense = senseless
senseless = boring
boring = nothing worth to read
even worst right?
so okay enough chit chat, that's enough from me
hope you guys enjoy reading my posts (that are sometimes not serious enough)
and thanks for stopping by.
gao gao
(i don't have constant signatures, don't you realize?)
well, just felt like doing so-_-
so hi again to the world and all of you strangers in between (we're all strangers, hell yeah) to whatever this is i'm doing with my time.
say, it's a blog.
anyway, i wanna share a quote that came in my mind today. not sure but here it is:
I don't tell others that I'm superior nor do I think of myself as inferior for doing so is already sinful because I believe that I'm born this way, to be one of God's greatest perfection
yep, still, it's true i never think myself as superior. normally, even if i do, i was joking around. me superior? right, the world's turning upside down. but maybe thinking myself as inferior being is what i do most which makes me sinful (well, we all do, just be honest)
there's this problem i have within me that caused me to think myself as an inferior;
i lack confidence.
yes, i have no talents at all in a confident manner. nothing. zero. end of the line. period.
pretty much, i'm upset the way it is. it hinders me from many things that i'm supposed to (or rather i 'was' supposed to) reach just because i'm afraid.
i brag in front of people sometimes so they won't found out what i really feel.
it's really anybody's guess. you get the idea.
sometimes, i wonder to myself, 'if i were this confident kind of girl, would it change anything? maybe change the way the world move towards me? change things that seems impossible to me? change the way i always feel about mostly anything? will it make any differences?'
anyone could guess a 'yes' on any of the above but, i'm not sure myself..
i am a sick person, who needs to be treated to call out those confidence that lies within me and kick out those unimportant such as the insecurities, afraid and other stuffs that doesn't count in myself to pursue a better future.
man, it's not easy, nothing's been easy hahaha
but i have this really great teacher (my acoustic guitar teacher; he has great confidence in whatever he is doing in music and he sounds really awesome! he looks like bruno mars too:p) who supports me in finding my confidence.
he said,
Musicians greatest enemy is not of being unable to play awesomely, the real enemy is themselves. Those fears, those insecurities, those shy and silly self-conciousness, throw them away! Musicians are all crazy being to start with and we all do crazy stuffs and enjoy things the way it is. Confidence is our bestest friend.
damn right.. i knew he's awesome (Y)
so how should i find the confidence i need?
it's simple;
just go crazy!
well, in a good way:P hahaha, this is a good reference to all of you who're shy like me (i'm not really shy but at some point, yes..)
you don't have to be a musician to be able to go crazy, everyone can go crazy!
that way you'll enjoy that very moment you change your view about life, about everything!
i don't have proof now on how it's done, but someday i will. just you wait!
i'm gonna be a future rockstar! well, not quite but yeah. hahaha
okay so anyway, if my posts are really getting too serious, well sorry:(
sometimes, i want to be known as serious too, not just some weirdo who happens to find out about things called 'blogging' and just posts some nonsense cos that's nonsense.
nonsense = senseless
senseless = boring
boring = nothing worth to read
even worst right?
so okay enough chit chat, that's enough from me
hope you guys enjoy reading my posts (that are sometimes not serious enough)
and thanks for stopping by.
gao gao
(i don't have constant signatures, don't you realize?)
7.22.2011
y'all i'm back
hey guys, it's been a while(Y)
yep, i'm a freakin 10 grader now, just gone crazier with each passing day
how's high school life?
i can't really decide right away but now, it's pretty damn cool(Y)
new stuffs to do, no more boredom at home, work some things out and hey, new friends!
what else could i possibly want?
well there are lots i guess:p
1. perform a duet
2. get good scores
3. clear problems up
4. no more projects to worry
5. math go to hell
6. physics could do the same as the above (no.5)
7. sketch some new plans
8. get in relationship (optional, really, i don't mind)
9. work out, sleep late, doing the usual, unbreakable habits
10. lots and lots of music and arts and literature and and and TOEFL TEST
yeah i know, i'm not really the smart-type person and more like the working-my-ass-hard-cos-it's-want-i-want-to-do-stuffs-type of person (got that?)
man, things are getting pretty much stiff these days. even i seems to lost contact with one of my bf..well, there're things much more important for now, i'll leave it be for the time being..
we'll come around, i guess hahaha
anyway, thanks for stopping by, reading this stupid blog i own and don't forget to check my deviant cos i've upload new stuffs to it and hope you guys like it(Y)
(so many 'and')
caooooooooooooooooooooo
~Katar-Act, your future rockstar(?)
yep, i'm a freakin 10 grader now, just gone crazier with each passing day
how's high school life?
i can't really decide right away but now, it's pretty damn cool(Y)
new stuffs to do, no more boredom at home, work some things out and hey, new friends!
what else could i possibly want?
well there are lots i guess:p
1. perform a duet
2. get good scores
3. clear problems up
4. no more projects to worry
5. math go to hell
6. physics could do the same as the above (no.5)
7. sketch some new plans
8. get in relationship (optional, really, i don't mind)
9. work out, sleep late, doing the usual, unbreakable habits
10. lots and lots of music and arts and literature and and and TOEFL TEST
yeah i know, i'm not really the smart-type person and more like the working-my-ass-hard-cos-it's-want-i-want-to-do-stuffs-type of person (got that?)
man, things are getting pretty much stiff these days. even i seems to lost contact with one of my bf..well, there're things much more important for now, i'll leave it be for the time being..
we'll come around, i guess hahaha
anyway, thanks for stopping by, reading this stupid blog i own and don't forget to check my deviant cos i've upload new stuffs to it and hope you guys like it(Y)
(so many 'and')
caooooooooooooooooooooo
~Katar-Act, your future rockstar(?)
5.17.2011
filler about you guys
hmm how's it been? pretty long but i managed to find something to talk about.
nearly a month after UAN ... so soon huh?
ok so what i want to talk about here is: gossip
yes yes lots of many people just loveeeeee to gossip on almost everything like clothes, music, food, people or specific person.
guess what? i hate gossips and those who gossips and even those who spread these things out. what are you guys, so damn bored you talked about others? get a life..
why i hate gossips and all its kin?
cos it's a double edge blade, get what i'm saying here?
well here's my example.
for some reason, i'm never the quite person. i'm a wild girl for my age. i'm unique and i love myself.but only few people actually accept me for who i am.
so the story goes, i'm restless and sometimes fight with others.no fist, just plain talk. well it's only for jokes seriously.
let's say we have a chat room.in this chat room, certain friends of mine love to create a mess here and there and who could have thought i got involved and also join the mess. peh, i never thought until then, someone would talk about me saying i create all sorts of trouble in the chat room which i hardly does. so much for being me.
look, the point is, start gossiping about someone and someday you'll have someone gossiping you. this is what a double edge blade means.
you don't know me or what happens. sure i know you're gonna get so damn annoyed but don't you dare talk about me when you don't know who i am.
wanna know what i think about you? maybe you shouldn't.
someone with two faced like you deserves nothing of the sort.
right, like it gives me anything.
sorry i got carried away i'm just mad. i don't like it when people talk behind my back. if you troubles with me, just talk to me! why's the fear? i'm not going to bite your head off >(
why can't people be honest to others?
if you talk these things to me, i wouldn't be so mad, no?
at least i would understand and refrain myself from creating any mess.
now how did we end up in this?
cao
nearly a month after UAN ... so soon huh?
ok so what i want to talk about here is: gossip
yes yes lots of many people just loveeeeee to gossip on almost everything like clothes, music, food, people or specific person.
guess what? i hate gossips and those who gossips and even those who spread these things out. what are you guys, so damn bored you talked about others? get a life..
why i hate gossips and all its kin?
cos it's a double edge blade, get what i'm saying here?
well here's my example.
for some reason, i'm never the quite person. i'm a wild girl for my age. i'm unique and i love myself.but only few people actually accept me for who i am.
so the story goes, i'm restless and sometimes fight with others.no fist, just plain talk. well it's only for jokes seriously.
let's say we have a chat room.in this chat room, certain friends of mine love to create a mess here and there and who could have thought i got involved and also join the mess. peh, i never thought until then, someone would talk about me saying i create all sorts of trouble in the chat room which i hardly does. so much for being me.
look, the point is, start gossiping about someone and someday you'll have someone gossiping you. this is what a double edge blade means.
you don't know me or what happens. sure i know you're gonna get so damn annoyed but don't you dare talk about me when you don't know who i am.
wanna know what i think about you? maybe you shouldn't.
someone with two faced like you deserves nothing of the sort.
right, like it gives me anything.
sorry i got carried away i'm just mad. i don't like it when people talk behind my back. if you troubles with me, just talk to me! why's the fear? i'm not going to bite your head off >(
why can't people be honest to others?
if you talk these things to me, i wouldn't be so mad, no?
at least i would understand and refrain myself from creating any mess.
now how did we end up in this?
cao
4.27.2011
a post? in the middle of UAN?(almost the end, actually)
hey hey it's been a while:)
well i'm too darn lazy but let's get down to the topic
hmm suggestions?
nothing comes in mind, really.
i've been bored (despite all the facts pointing that i must study for UAN, which makes me even more hopeless in searching of something to do)..
I'VE BEEN REALLY BORED I MIGHT DIE
yeah.so.forget about the dying part.
ok so i came up with...
UAN?no. too damn boring
so
how bout SHOWS and PERFORMANCES?
truth be told, i've been itching to one myself, intentionally of course.
since all this time (recently, i mean), i was called for shows but unintentionally and unprepared thus, well, i ended up just fine though.still in one piece.
talk about shows, i do have an opportunity.i didn't have any means to shine or whatsoever people like to call, being famous?nah, that ruins my image.
so i want to perform because, i want to!
i like to entertain others, in a good way (Y)
especially music! and jokes.. hehe
well, unintentional jokes are far better than my intended jokes.dunno why.
instinct?maybe
so..i've been thinking about the performances ever since.
it may seem ridiculous but, i want to uphold shows and performances more than anything (like school works. realtionship still number one though(Y)).
even since we're preparing for UAN and UAS, my mind reeled up with ideas for shows.
'how to do this, that, prepare stuffs etc etc.'
i've practiced a few pieces too and i really really want to go on a show.
but what i lack is confidence==a...so much for the efforts.
i'm thinking not to waste it n going to work extra harder! YEAH!
what's the pieces you say?hahaha it's a secret:)
but before i keep babbling about this, i REALLY need to focus on my final UAN because there's someone i want to beat!i'm not gonna quit.
actually i'm quit upset there wasn't a bet about beating this guy but, my reputation on the line so i guess i can think of it as the bet hahhaa.
of course, we should remember what Mr. Adidas says, 'Impossible is nothing!'
YEAH!!!!
i can do this like all of you can rite?what to worry about hahaha
so okay done with this there's something i want to ask:
1. is there something that you really want to do after this damn UAN or basically a work?
2. do you feel like i do to?getting all fired up like that i mean
3. confidence!u got that or what?
4. mind telling me how to be confident in oneself?:)
thanks i look forward to the replies (if i have some)
gao gao
well i'm too darn lazy but let's get down to the topic
hmm suggestions?
nothing comes in mind, really.
i've been bored (despite all the facts pointing that i must study for UAN, which makes me even more hopeless in searching of something to do)..
I'VE BEEN REALLY BORED I MIGHT DIE
yeah.so.forget about the dying part.
ok so i came up with...
UAN?no. too damn boring
so
how bout SHOWS and PERFORMANCES?
truth be told, i've been itching to one myself, intentionally of course.
since all this time (recently, i mean), i was called for shows but unintentionally and unprepared thus, well, i ended up just fine though.still in one piece.
talk about shows, i do have an opportunity.i didn't have any means to shine or whatsoever people like to call, being famous?nah, that ruins my image.
so i want to perform because, i want to!
i like to entertain others, in a good way (Y)
especially music! and jokes.. hehe
well, unintentional jokes are far better than my intended jokes.dunno why.
instinct?maybe
so..i've been thinking about the performances ever since.
it may seem ridiculous but, i want to uphold shows and performances more than anything (like school works. realtionship still number one though(Y)).
even since we're preparing for UAN and UAS, my mind reeled up with ideas for shows.
'how to do this, that, prepare stuffs etc etc.'
i've practiced a few pieces too and i really really want to go on a show.
but what i lack is confidence==a...so much for the efforts.
i'm thinking not to waste it n going to work extra harder! YEAH!
what's the pieces you say?hahaha it's a secret:)
but before i keep babbling about this, i REALLY need to focus on my final UAN because there's someone i want to beat!i'm not gonna quit.
actually i'm quit upset there wasn't a bet about beating this guy but, my reputation on the line so i guess i can think of it as the bet hahhaa.
of course, we should remember what Mr. Adidas says, 'Impossible is nothing!'
YEAH!!!!
i can do this like all of you can rite?what to worry about hahaha
so okay done with this there's something i want to ask:
1. is there something that you really want to do after this damn UAN or basically a work?
2. do you feel like i do to?getting all fired up like that i mean
3. confidence!u got that or what?
4. mind telling me how to be confident in oneself?:)
thanks i look forward to the replies (if i have some)
gao gao
4.07.2011
This sounds weird
i know this sounds weird but i actually PLAYED GAMES IN THE MIDDLE OF TESTS WEEKS.
i have never. again, NEVER done this until now but guess what, it was a huge breakthrough. my score's rocketting(Y)
good for me
*don't try this at home. professionals only (which is me :P)
i made quite the mess with myself, i guess but hey! i'm being productive here as I work on my projects intensively and all, yada yada. i tried being creative much and create weird stuffs out of weird stuffs so basically
weird + weird = weirder
the weirder, the better. well not many people see things the way i do but i don't mind that. one day, they'll acknowledge me. and please don't say i'm an evil scientist or mad person cos i'm not.
i'm just not normal
just kidding
but seriously.
okok, today's topic is... Test!
peh, boring?high-five!
so, it's been like weeks my schools are having test for us ninth graders.it's great actually, i love it especially the part when you-get-to-sleep-at-class-when-you're-done-with-the-test-while-waiting-for-the-time-to-go-home-at-10-am-in-the-morning.
(when i said am, i probably shouldn't said morning.)
awesome part ya?
high-five if you agreed:)
so all these tests are driving me crazy?
if u ask the others, they'll probably say yes.
me?you've got to be joking. THIS IS THE BEST PART EVER!
i don't know, i'm kinda retarded?maybe
when everyone suffers, i seem to get the good grab
when everyone had a great time, i'm the one suffering D:
well, this test has been a great time for me to relax.except the part where my parents got angry at me everytime they don't see me study so i always have to hold on to a book or two or scattered papers across the floor of my room, even better.
yeah, it's a great deal but i've been enjoying it. keeps me from stressing out cos i'm already a stressed out person and i don't need people to tell me that i've gone mad and weirder.
in any case i've lost my mind writing stupid posts, please ignore my lame-a-bility.
and if you have fun reading this stuffs, maybe u should get a doctor.
so
bye
i have never. again, NEVER done this until now but guess what, it was a huge breakthrough. my score's rocketting(Y)
good for me
*don't try this at home. professionals only (which is me :P)
i made quite the mess with myself, i guess but hey! i'm being productive here as I work on my projects intensively and all, yada yada. i tried being creative much and create weird stuffs out of weird stuffs so basically
weird + weird = weirder
the weirder, the better. well not many people see things the way i do but i don't mind that. one day, they'll acknowledge me. and please don't say i'm an evil scientist or mad person cos i'm not.
i'm just not normal
just kidding
but seriously.
okok, today's topic is... Test!
peh, boring?high-five!
so, it's been like weeks my schools are having test for us ninth graders.it's great actually, i love it especially the part when you-get-to-sleep-at-class-when-you're-done-with-the-test-while-waiting-for-the-time-to-go-home-at-10-am-in-the-morning.
(when i said am, i probably shouldn't said morning.)
awesome part ya?
high-five if you agreed:)
so all these tests are driving me crazy?
if u ask the others, they'll probably say yes.
me?you've got to be joking. THIS IS THE BEST PART EVER!
i don't know, i'm kinda retarded?maybe
when everyone suffers, i seem to get the good grab
when everyone had a great time, i'm the one suffering D:
well, this test has been a great time for me to relax.except the part where my parents got angry at me everytime they don't see me study so i always have to hold on to a book or two or scattered papers across the floor of my room, even better.
yeah, it's a great deal but i've been enjoying it. keeps me from stressing out cos i'm already a stressed out person and i don't need people to tell me that i've gone mad and weirder.
in any case i've lost my mind writing stupid posts, please ignore my lame-a-bility.
and if you have fun reading this stuffs, maybe u should get a doctor.
so
bye
3.02.2011
never post much
it's been a while actually for me to post again.let's say i'm too lazy to update.
yeah i'm just a teenage and enjoying my life to the fullest
so i've been having hard time in exams actually and it's kind of sucks
i didn't say that i sucks at almost everything now but math and physics?
go to hell
now
the main point i want to talk about today is a malpractice? yeah that's right
i've been watching some news on tv and believe me you don't want to end up like that.
well there's this baby girl whose having a disease at that time.however when being transferred to the hospital and being infused with some liquid (you know the douche bag thing?), her hands began to burn almost immediately and her little finger...
it fell off by itself.
scary huh?
i was wondering how the hell at the same time.
to be honest, i don't get what people are thinking these days.so childish
playing with lives so easily like that. even the government
great this is my least favorite subject: GOVERNMENT!
my GOD! what the hell man?! what's with you people?! building some more DPR building in Indonesia people could get stuck and killed!
why don't they think of other things useful anyway?!
seriously, how selfish.i don't care if you guys would search for me, accuse me and throw me to jail, I DON'T CARE! i believe i'm not at fault here cos i'm speaking the truth.
truth where many people could not have a better life because of the stuck-up government.stupid laws that are not obeyed by you yourselves.if you're not gonna put up some effort maybe you should just rot in hell.
we are counting on you and you cheated on us?how's that fair to us?
you selfish bastards should have gone like miles away from us! maybe we could handle things better than you cos we're listening to what the people needs.
yeah that's it.
i'm tired talking like this
i apologize for many words that i wrote here but hey, i'm in a democratic country!
i have the right to speak even if i'm not seventeen! damn right!
yeah i'm just a teenage and enjoying my life to the fullest
so i've been having hard time in exams actually and it's kind of sucks
i didn't say that i sucks at almost everything now but math and physics?
go to hell
now
the main point i want to talk about today is a malpractice? yeah that's right
i've been watching some news on tv and believe me you don't want to end up like that.
well there's this baby girl whose having a disease at that time.however when being transferred to the hospital and being infused with some liquid (you know the douche bag thing?), her hands began to burn almost immediately and her little finger...
it fell off by itself.
scary huh?
i was wondering how the hell at the same time.
to be honest, i don't get what people are thinking these days.so childish
playing with lives so easily like that. even the government
great this is my least favorite subject: GOVERNMENT!
my GOD! what the hell man?! what's with you people?! building some more DPR building in Indonesia people could get stuck and killed!
why don't they think of other things useful anyway?!
seriously, how selfish.i don't care if you guys would search for me, accuse me and throw me to jail, I DON'T CARE! i believe i'm not at fault here cos i'm speaking the truth.
truth where many people could not have a better life because of the stuck-up government.stupid laws that are not obeyed by you yourselves.if you're not gonna put up some effort maybe you should just rot in hell.
we are counting on you and you cheated on us?how's that fair to us?
you selfish bastards should have gone like miles away from us! maybe we could handle things better than you cos we're listening to what the people needs.
yeah that's it.
i'm tired talking like this
i apologize for many words that i wrote here but hey, i'm in a democratic country!
i have the right to speak even if i'm not seventeen! damn right!
1.12.2011
Hey how's it goin?
hi guys! you see it's been a while since I've open up my blog.really i was having a hard time and since i'm a ninth grader (which is SMP 3 in Indonesian terms) i'll be dealing with lots of work and try-outs to pass the exam. right, i'm bad at math, duh.
so i'm not really hyper at studying, i bet most of you guys r not hyper either. well but still, i need to. too bad candies won't make me hyper. pathetic
okay, school's performances were not so fun as last years and it's been seriously nagging in my head. i can't say i hate it but it's just so..uncool.
how to describe that?
yeah like no one would actually watch some 14 years old teenage girl who happens to be playing on a piano with the song Cloud Smiles, you bet!
that's all for now..until then
ciao!
so i'm not really hyper at studying, i bet most of you guys r not hyper either. well but still, i need to. too bad candies won't make me hyper. pathetic
okay, school's performances were not so fun as last years and it's been seriously nagging in my head. i can't say i hate it but it's just so..uncool.
how to describe that?
yeah like no one would actually watch some 14 years old teenage girl who happens to be playing on a piano with the song Cloud Smiles, you bet!
that's all for now..until then
ciao!
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